Thoughts
I have been having those thoughts again... I don't think I'm happy.
I love my husband (though at times I would love to slap the shit out of him), I love my son, BUT
I don't love my house. There is so much that I would love to be different, but I have to be thankful for what I have.
I don't love my job. I work with some of the most amazing, caring people ever. Definitely the best company I have ever worked for, and I am fortunate enough to be able to work from home to be home with my son all of the time. So why am I unhappy? Maybe because I'm up most of the night with work, and then up all day with Wyatt. Or maybe this isn't the part of nursing that I love, whatever that may be. I keep thinking, that I will try out all fields and maybe just maybe I will find "the one". But I don't know anymore. I keep racking my brain about what do I want to do for graduate school, and that deals with specializing in an area. So I have no idea of what I may like to do. I don't want to start something and find out that I don't like it but continue to do it because I don't like to leave anything unfinished.
I think most of my problem may lead down to confidence. I don't think I have the right amount of confidence to take charge. Maybe I am just lazy. I don't know. But I have started thinking, what if I did something completely different? What could that be though?
I started talking about possible career changes with my husband and of course he didn't want to hear it. I'm the bread winner in our family. Without my pay, we wouldn't survive. We barely do as it is. And right now we're we're hoping that he gets this promotion.
There are two fields left that I haven't tried that interest me and that has to do with radiology and women's health. I've always wanted to work with teens with STDs and pregnancy. So maybe teaching?
I just wish. It would hit me!!
I love my husband (though at times I would love to slap the shit out of him), I love my son, BUT
I don't love my house. There is so much that I would love to be different, but I have to be thankful for what I have.
I don't love my job. I work with some of the most amazing, caring people ever. Definitely the best company I have ever worked for, and I am fortunate enough to be able to work from home to be home with my son all of the time. So why am I unhappy? Maybe because I'm up most of the night with work, and then up all day with Wyatt. Or maybe this isn't the part of nursing that I love, whatever that may be. I keep thinking, that I will try out all fields and maybe just maybe I will find "the one". But I don't know anymore. I keep racking my brain about what do I want to do for graduate school, and that deals with specializing in an area. So I have no idea of what I may like to do. I don't want to start something and find out that I don't like it but continue to do it because I don't like to leave anything unfinished.
I think most of my problem may lead down to confidence. I don't think I have the right amount of confidence to take charge. Maybe I am just lazy. I don't know. But I have started thinking, what if I did something completely different? What could that be though?
I started talking about possible career changes with my husband and of course he didn't want to hear it. I'm the bread winner in our family. Without my pay, we wouldn't survive. We barely do as it is. And right now we're we're hoping that he gets this promotion.
There are two fields left that I haven't tried that interest me and that has to do with radiology and women's health. I've always wanted to work with teens with STDs and pregnancy. So maybe teaching?
I just wish. It would hit me!!
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