Ah, the dreaded swimsuit season...

Ah, the dreaded swimsuit season. 

How many of you love the swimsuits? I do not. I have never liked them. I have always felt so uncomfortable in them. Tugging at the top. Tugging at the bottom. Trying to get it to stretch over those parts of my body that I want to hide. I used to be excited to buy a new tankini. I've only been brave enough to sport a bikini maybe like twice in my life. You know, I haven't bought a real swimsuit in a very long time. See the picture below on the left? I was wearing a swimsuit bottom with the athletic shorts, a sports bra, and that loose and breezy athletic top. I just did not feel comfortable in my skin at all. I wasn't happy with my appearance. I wasn't happy with myself. 

This time of the year always seems to the worst! It's hot. I want to be cool. I don't want to sweat a whole bunch. BUT I would always wear long pants to hide my legs, loose tops to hide my mid-section, and sleeves to hide my arms. It was always a hiding game. I hid from pictures. In this case, I couldn't hide . I didn't want to think about going out in the heat in front of people. I was so unhappy with myself, they might see that too. Don't move a certain way.... I might expose my dark secrets.

Fast forward 50 lbs less later..... (zoom!)..... 

This summer, I have worn shorts the most I have worn them in such a long time! I'm actually excited to wear them! I need more! I ordered a pair of jean shorts that are a 29, they're shorter than I once would pick....but I absolutely love them! I teased Gray yesterday that I have never shaved my legs so much  (at least in a VERY long time).

I bought a two piece. I feel great in it. I wear it in front of people when we're at the pool. It feels super weird but I remind myself every day that I love myself, I am healthy.... why shouldn't I show that? I haven't been brave enough to have a picture snapped of me in just the two piece yet. Only just with the tank top as you see below. Maybe one day I will get there Because after all, I am a work in progress!

Feel free to share my story! I would love to help anyone who is ready to transform their lifestyle into a healthier, happier forever  All you have to do is ask! You are so worth it!